My day of being on my own roller coaster and going too fast

Today I had to go to Work and Income today. For those of you who don't live in New Zealand, its like this place in America

Americas place of nightmares in my opinion

I'm not unemployed by choice. I would love to work. I would love something to focus on that isn't my head 24/7, 365 days a year. I wake up its there, i go to sleep its there. I try to do mindfulness, it works, but then it comes back.

I went into Work and Income today to get some help to pay for some bills. I had 3 ambulance bills, i had a childcare bill for my bub, I had a after hours Dr bill...why bore you guys with the details....

The lady there...she might as well have been sent from the freezer that morning. I mentioned I had mental health problems...that was it for her. I had bought my soul mate with me. I had all the forms, i had spoken to the right people to know how to behave in this place of governement policies a mile high.....

At this point i honestly don't know what to say that can describe how badly this meeting went.

She wouldn't listen to a thing myself or my soul mate said. Apparently in the offices we are not even allowed to raise our voices or we get evicted on the spot from the building by 2 security officers and trespassed for 2 years  from the Branch. I had informed myself about this before meeting so i didn't do that. When i told her that she smiled and quite loudly said "Yup!"

I got nowhere with that meeting, but I have certainly put in a complaint about her. Because one thing I'm learning from this horrible roller coaster of this year. If you get treated badlyby someone who thinks they are in power 

Speak out because nothing is going to change if you don't actually say anything about it


Don't be scared of them. They are just people who are in powerful positions. You just need to be willing to pick up the phone and be brave enough to say no I'm not going to accept being treated like dirt by this person.

If they don't listen, don't stop till they do. This is why this song today playing is called Focus on me. Its dedicated to all those who have kept quiet when they should of said something when treated unfairly by people in power. No matter where you live, what county...America...Africa...Spain...Europe...if you feel unfairly treated

SPEAK OUT BECAUSE ONLY YOU CAN CHANGE YOURSELF

💖💕

Shan
xx


My song for today