A little about me...

Hi. My names Shannon. Well actually its Genevievre Eliza Shannon Schwander. That's my adoptive name.
If i had stayed with my my birth parents my name would of been apparently Shannon Marie Stannard. 
Honestly don't know which name i prefer. 
Both sound pretty complicated to me, so i tend to stick to Shannon Schwander. 
Even then i still get asked to spell Schwander, and Shannon. Turns out there are a lot of ways to spell Shannon. and Schwander is just too hard for people.
Doesn't really matter now does it, because at 3 months old I was adopted out. The neighbours apparently couldn't listen to me screaming endlessly at walls anymore.
I write that and stop...i honestly don't know how to feel. I feel pain for the baby...me.
This is what i looked like

I look at my photos and I feel sad. I emphatise for myself. People tell me it doesn't matter anymore, but it does. I am who i am because of the fact my birth parents


This is my life's motto and will probably remain that way as my illness will not go away. Sadly I don't see this world changing either. We can change though. But we all hate so much. All of us harbour so much hate though. Do yourself a favour please if you read this blog. Listen to this song. Not half of it, not a quarter of it, the whole thing. I'm sure at least once in your life you've been angry at some big Co-operation. The government, your own Work, your Lawyer, your Doctor....I could go on, but why. You know what I'm talking about. I don't need to live in the past, i do it enough https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=v7u8ZPdH3sA

I'm going to start this blog now, once I push publish I'll start my journey. Its rough, please feel free to add your thoughts, feelings, even your own journeys. I'll respond (as best as i can please remember I have my own demons), I also have 2 gorgeous kids and a man who I love with all my heart. And one day who knows might even have time to get a Facebook started. At the moment all i wanna do is get this out, because at the end of the day, the only person who you can count on to help you, is


Yourself

So I think for now this is where I'm going to leave it and start at the beginning, follow me, heal from me. Just sit back and realise that life is to be quite blunt really rough, but if im going through it then you can too, we can do it together, theres always someone listening

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Shan